living day

My close friends have probably  heard me say this before- When I was younger, I was always curious and interested in being pregnant and giving birth-- but not so much about the mothering post birth. It occurred to me today that I was indeed pregnant and checking something huge off of my "bucket list."

Now that Im 34 weeks pregnant, it's so much more real and amazing. It's like- this being has significant mass- she has a developing personality-- she is developing repetitive movements-- responding to touch, noise and focussed breath. I am getting to know this person and I couldn't be more honored or excited at doing so. As excited as I am to get to know her- Im equally as impressed with who she is, right now, inside of me.

Today we had an appointment with the midwife. Things seem to be going along as usual. We have an appointment in two weeks and after that we will go every week... that's how close we are! It's like this whole experience is on fast forward and I just figured out how to enjoy it. I guess you know your really freakin' happy when your average daily life feels MORE like  joy filled moment speeding past your wonder filled eyes. It's like when Christmas comes and goes in a blink of an eye when your a little kid... except in this case you don't wake up disappointed that the big day came and went, but more-so grateful that you get to spend another day alive.

That being said- I want to dedicate this post to my stepfather, Ed's mother- Anne Vella. She passed this year and I recently found some photos of her from last Christmas. I was overwhelmed with joy when I saw her face staring back at me... it was like she paid me a visit to remind me to love and cherish every moment of life. May you rest in peace as beautifully as you lived.

*disregard the date stamped on the picture. It should read Thanksgiving, 2010